Psalm 18:23

“I have been blameless before him and I kept myself from my iniquity.”

Nothing is a richer source of comfort to any man than the testimony of his own conscience that he has acted right; for, if our own heart does not condemn us—then have we confidence towards God.

Paul enjoyed this in a pre-eminent degree, “Our rejoicing,” says he, “is this, the testimony of our conscience, that in simplicity and godly sincerity, not with fleshly wisdom, but by the grace of God, we have had our conduct in the world, 2 Corinthians 1:12.”

Just so, in the whole of his conduct towards Saul, David could appeal to God himself, that he had demeaned himself as a loyal subject, and had rendered nothing but good for all the evil that he had received at his hands.

“They (Saul and his followers) confronted me in the day of my disaster, but the LORD was my support. He brought me out into a spacious place; he rescued me because he delighted in me. The LORD has dealt with me according to my righteousness; according to the cleanness of my hands he has rewarded me. For I have kept the ways of the LORD; I have not done evil by turning from my God. All his laws are before me; I have not turned away from his decrees. I have been blameless before him and I kept myself from my iniquity.” Psalm 18:18-23

It is my intention to inquire,

I. What is that iniquity which we may properly call our own?

There are the seeds of all sin, in every individual of our fallen race! But, as in different soils some plants will flourish more than others, so in different men are different sinful propensities, which, growing to maturity, become prominent and characteristic features of the different individuals. There is, more or less, in every one, some “sin which more easily besets him, Hebrews 12:1;” and which, therefore, may be justly called his own sin, as having taken the fuller possession of his soul, and as serving to distinguish him from others.

1. That may be called our besetting sin, to which, from outward circumstances, we are most exposed.

This I suppose to be the precise case with David in my text. He was persecuted by Saul with most unrelenting cruelty; and was strongly tempted, both by his friends and by a regard for his own safety, to avail himself of the opportunities which were afforded him of destroying his enemy, 1 Samuel 24:2-15; 1 Samuel 26:6-12.

Now, by birth and education, men are exposed to widely different temptations; as Agur intimated, when he prayed, “Two things I ask of you, O LORD; do not refuse me before I die: Keep falsehood and lies far from me; give me neither poverty nor riches, but give me only my daily bread. Otherwise, I may have too much and disown you and say, ‘Who is the LORD?’ Or I may become poor and steal, and so dishonor the name of my God.” Proverbs 30:7-9.”

Men also are subjected to evils incidental to their different vocations in life. Those who move in a higher sphere, under the influence of proud and ambitious thoughts, are led to seek their own advancement at the expense of others. Those of the middle classes, who are engaged in mercantile transactions, are but too prone to indulge an inordinate desire for wealth; while those of the lowest rank are apt to yield to the unhallowed emotions of murmuring and discontent.

When John the Baptist saw people of different vocations coming to his baptism, he particularly adverted to their respective occupations, to guard them against the evils incident to each; warning the publicans against exaction, and the soldiers against rapacity, Luke 3:12-14; and thus showing how all, in every department of life, are bound to watch against the sins to which their peculiar callings more immediately expose them!

From our friends and relations in life we also are subjected to many evils which tend to form and fix our character.

Are we surrounded by those who are mirthful and dissipated? Then we are apt to contract a taste for gaiety and folly.

Are our nearest relations worldly, carnal, covetous, ambitious? Then we are apt to drink into their spirit, and to be greatly influenced by their example; as it is said of Joram, king of Judah, “He walked in the way of the kings of Israel, as did the house of Ahab; for the daughter of Ahab was his wife; and he did evil in the sight of the Lord! 2 Kings 8:18.”

2. That may be called our besetting sin, to which, from inward dispositions, we are most inclined.

Even in the earliest infancy, there will be found widely different dispositions in children of the same parents; and as the children grow up to manhood, these form, in a very great degree, their distinctive characters through life. Doubtless these dispositions may be abated in some, and strengthened in others, according to the occasions that may arise for their nourishment or suppression. They may also vary with the different periods of their life.

But, whatever is a man’s leading disposition, it will expose him to temptation, and he will be likely to be betrayed into sin by means of those things which are calculated to gratify his peculiar desires. In other matters he may maintain a blameless deportment; or, if he has erred, may easily renounce his errors; but on the side of his darling lust he will be in danger of falling; even as Herod, who would obey in many respects the admonitions of John the Baptist, Mark 6:18-28, but, when called to put away his beloved Herodias, would rather sacrifice the life of John, than comply with his advice! Let the besetting propensity be what it may—on that side will be our danger, and the sin arising from it is that which we need to guard against as most peculiarly our own.

3. That may be called our besetting sin, to which, from the force of habit, we are most addicted.

Habit is, indeed, a second nature! An Ethiopian may as easily change his skin, or a leopard his spots—as we can put away an evil to which we have been long accustomed.

A man that has long yielded to fretfulness and impatience will never lack occasions whereon to show the irritability of his mind.

A person who has given way to impurity, will contract such a propensity to the indulgence of it, that his very “eyes will be full of adultery, and he cannot cease from sin, 2 Peter 2:14.” Even when there are not before him any objects to call it forth; his own polluted imagination furnishes him with plenty of fuel for his unhallowed fire.

“The backslider in heart,” we are told, “shall be filled with his own ways, Proverbs 14:14;” from whence we see that habit gives to our lusts a certain propensity over us, and to us a certain desire for them; insomuch, that as there is a mutual indwelling between God and the believing soul—so is there also between a sinner and the lusts with which, from habit, he has obtained a more than ordinary familiarity. So true is that declaration of the Apostle, that, whatever be a man’s outward temptations, he is, in fact, “drawn away by his own lust, and enticed! James 1:14.”

If, from what has been said, we have any insight into our besetting sin, let us proceed to inquire,

II. How far we are able to adopt the language of the Psalmist in relation to it?

Certainly, we are all deeply interested in this matter. Let me, then, press home upon you the following inquiries:

1. How far have you discovered your besetting sin?

It is astonishing to what an extent men in general are blinded in reference to it. All around them see it easily enough, while they themselves are strangers to it! All their acquaintances will say:

This is a proud man;

that is a passionate man;

that is a covetous man;

that is a mean-spirited and censorious man;

that is an argumentative and discontented man.

But, however clear men’s characteristic infirmities are to others, they are hidden from themselves!

In many cases men not only veil their faults under some subtle name, but actually take credit to themselves for those very peculiarities as constituting their most distinguishing virtues!

The proud man, who for a slight offence will shed the blood of an acquaintance, calls himself a man of honor.

The ambitious man, who slaughters thousands and tens of thousands in order to extend his empire, when he has already far more than he knows well how to govern, is called a conqueror, and values himself upon that as entitling him to the admiration of mankind.

The man who is, with insatiable avidity, amassing wealth, applauds himself as prudently providing for his family.

And if a man’s faults be too glaring to be turned into virtues, he will extenuate them under the name of trivial errors, or youthful indiscretions.

But, Beloved, if this is your state—then you are yet in darkness and the shadow of death. The very first step towards the knowledge of the Savior is the knowledge of yourselves; and if you do not possess not this—then all your other knowledge, whatever it may be, will be in vain!

2. How far have you watched and prayed against your besetting sin?

With all our self-love, our besetting sin may be so glaring and dominant that we cannot but know it. Still, however, we may not be humbled under a sense of it, but like King Saul, may be returning to it again and again, after all our acknowledgment of its vileness.

But it is not thus with an upright soul. He will say with indignation, “What have I any more to do with idols?” And if he has been foiled in many attempts to subdue his lusts, he will be more and more earnest in prayer to God for grace sufficient for him, that, “through the influences of the Holy Spirit, he may mortify the deeds of the body, Romans 8:13,” and “preserve himself unspotted,” though in the midst of a polluting and ensnaring world! James 1:27.

See, also, whether you watch against the occasions that may call forth your indwelling corruption; and whether you mark the first risings of it in your soul—that you may the more effectually prevent its dominance and defilement? Our Lord’s direction is, “Watch and pray, that you enter not into temptation;” and he has provided armor for us, that we may fight against sin in its first assaults. We may be sure, that, if we are not thus habitually contending with our besetting sin—then we can never with truth assert that we have kept ourselves from it.

3. How far have we actually overcome our besetting sin?

“One that is born of God cannot practice sin, 1 John 3:9,” as once he did. God has said, that “sin shall not have dominion over him, because he is not under the law, but under grace, Romans 6:14.” “The man that obeys sin, is the slave of sin;” and consequently neither is, nor can be, the servant of God, Romans 6:16. He may, it is true, still feel the workings of his besetting sin; but then it will be an intolerable burden to him; and while under a sense of its working, he will cry, “Oh, wretched man that I am! who shall deliver me from this body of sin and death?” he will be enabled to add, “I thank God, through Jesus Christ our Lord, Romans 7:18-19; Romans 7:24-25.”

Sin’s motions may still continue; but its power is broken, and its reign destroyed; so that he is no longer the bond-slave of Satan; for “the truth has made him free; and he is free indeed, John 8:32.”

That I may enforce this subject on your hearts and consciences, I declare before God and this assembly:

1. That only in proportion as you keep yourselves from your besetting sin, have you any evidence that you are upright before God.

David speaks of his victory over his besetting sin as his evidence of his uprightness before God, “I have been upright before God; for I have kept myself from my iniquity.”

Now, I beseech you, brethren, to try yourselves by this test. “If you are Christ’s indeed—then you have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts, Galatians 5:24;” and if you are “Israelites indeed—then you are without any known and allowed deceit, John 1:47.” But I must warn you that, if you allow any one sin—then you cannot be the servants of Jesus Christ; for if you were really his, you would “walk as he walked, 1 John 2:6,” and “purify yourselves even as he is pure! 1 John 3:3.”

2. Only in proportion as you keep yourselves from your besetting sin, have you any hope of happiness in the eternal world.

Our blessed Lord has told us plainly, that “a right eye or a right hand retained by us will be the means of casting us into Hell-fire! Mark 9:43-48.” What a dreadful thought is this! How fearful should it make us of self-deception! Truly, we should not be content with searching and trying ourselves, but should beg of God also, to “search and try us, to see if there is any wicked way in us, and to lead us in the way everlasting, Psalm 139:23-24.” For, if we should be saved at last, “we must be sincere, and without offence until the day of Christ, Philippians 1:10.”

Charles Simeon